your such a fucking dick

I want these so bad

I love dread locks, and i really really want them,

i want to go traveling now, leave school at 16 and travel and travel

i want to go to brazil, to india,

im going to australia, just me and my sister, this christmas,

it will be amazing

i know if i got dreads everyone at school would think im dirty

and i know your not supposed to care, but i do to be honest

i guess ill have to wait until my gap year

:) :)

hippie love

music

i love beirut

i love mumford and sons

i love the killers

i love snow patrol, i went to see them and they were so beautiful and amazing, so much better live, they overpowered the room and made my heart race

i love the beatles- mainly for the lyrics

i love florence and the machine

i like jamie t

all my friends have got me into things like the libertines and bombay bicycle club, i like them

what the fuck is going on!?

one night im great, everythings great. i dont care about him and how he hurts me, it actually makes me laugh. then the next night im so torn up that im crying and in physically pain at the same time, wanting him to want me so badly i would do anything, and then seeing he doesnt care.

tonight is a good night

tonight is all right

mabye were back on track, on the railroad to another 'good patch' after this brief but intense bad one, i dont know, mabye we'll have to wait and see

love

i just looked up i love you in a hundred different languages.

i dont think he loves me, in any language.

he's not interested, he doesnt care. im just an extra specimen in his life, i dont think he would even miss me if i was gone.

but i cant go, i cant leave him, i love him, and i hate him, all at once, all the time

The Human Centipide

Hahahahaha!
this film is sick but so funny in a disturbing way, i watched it last night and then had nightmares, was well wierd.

FB

my tattoo
my initials
me.

12.05 AM

in exactly 6 days, it will have been 6 months

i love him so much

jelousy

is a shit.
i never really knew what jelousy was before j came along
now i know allll about it, and its horrible, the worst part is, that sometimes my paranoid jelousy is justified, sometimes, he does things he knows he shouldnt, and sometimes, i cant completely trust him enough to ask him.
so i just carry on, and everythings good, but underneath, underneath im a little scared, and a little suspicious, and i cry, sometimes, when i let it get into my head and my heart

love is never enough

my friend got a tattoo recently 'love is enough'

i like the tattoo, but i could never have that on me.
love is the painful, hurtful, fucked up thing ive ever been in
before i feel in love i longed to, like they do in the movies, and when i did, i knew love isnt enough.
love is the deepest part of your soul, the whole constuction of it. so when someone you love is a dick, or a bitch, or ignores you, it feels like the foundations of your heart have crumpled.

I have cried so many tears for love, held myself and wept so many nights and so many days, love makes you so vunerable to pain.
Yeah, i have had those movie moments, those moments where you think ' its like im in a film' and where your heart swells and your throat is full with how happy you are. But then comes the missing, the urgent longing for more. And after that, the lonliness when you realise the person you love doesn't need you as much as you need them.
Love is what holds the world together, in some way or another, but its also what breaks the worlds heart, love is what you need, but it isnt all you need, not by far.